i need to travel. i'm stuck now, in a shell, in a skull, in a world

it's a circular  track, i'm afraid to walk out the exit door,

i see people out there and some of them are my friends-

i have too many excuses which really amount to none but i'm still stuck.

how am i still stuck?

why?

(i have just ultimately realized that i need to throw away my light box! but can i?!!!) 

how do you let go of a security that is based in complacency? i'm not secure, nor do i feel secure, so why do i have to stay in this one place and wonder why i can't leave???